Wednesday, October 25, 2006
hmmm ive been rather judgemental recently ...tts bad .i may have hurt others in the process either knowingly or unknowingly ,either ways its just bad .oh lord i see my wrong =/// guide me and lead me .Over these few days ive been living a life as if god doesnt exist.Im sorry if ive hurt anyone .
ive been rather judgemental towards the opposite sex haha weird but true ,ill admit .ive been irritated by my bro so much these few days tt i feel like kicking him haha heres what he did ( ive shared this with my pw grp=))))
1 )my bro aint such a darling when he force his ghost stories on me ahhhhhh! haha there i was trying to sing while cupping my ears so tt i wont hear his stories buttttttttts it totally didnt work ,i *gulps * heard it .i woke up in the middle of the night finding myself crying and scared and so angry ,at tt point i realli wanna go to my bros room to kick him ...buttttts god said no ! oh my but i was dying to
2)hes chauvinistic .....*cries* whats with guys and their ego????? i was walking down the stairs and then he has to block me ,i was given two choice either to walk under his arms or to walk towards the right ( ive nv played such a dumdedmum game). this was quite funny but i dun realli understand the rationale behind it .buttts since i had time to spare so i played along with him ....haha so i just slept on the stairs to see how long he can stand and block me ,he played cheat larz while my mum slepped away he told me ANOTHER GHOST STORY ! okies he won
i think tt this episode has made me stay clear of being nice to the guys ,i find myself refuting what they say and trying to thump them down ...haha tts so sad .its just the emotional scars ,i dun understand why he wld hurt me like tt,trying to scare me when he knows im weak to such stuff.
butttts seriously give me more time okies ,i can still feel the anger in me ...if im weird just let me be ,im still trying .tyring to be nice trying to open up .i hope ull see my efforts =))))pray for me , i need lotsa help
rainbow;
3:29 AM
